Today I "officially" weighed in (as I do on Sundays.) I've lost a total of 15 lbs since January 1st! I'm pretty excited about that. I usually lose a few pounds in the first week just due to water weight and such, but I'm glad it stuck.
Today is my dad's birthday and I was looking for a picture of the two of us to put up as my facebook picture, and we really don't have any together recently, so I went way back and found pictures from my high school graduation. I was so incredibly ashamed of my body then, and though I was overweight, I was only about 20 lbs overweight as opposed to 70. Isn't it amazing how you can think you are SUCH an ugly person and then look back and realize that you were at least somewhat cute? It's too bad that I was so racked with self-image issues that I just sort of hid. If I had been more confident, I would have done more, I think. Before my senior year of high school I'd lost 30 pounds on Weight Watchers (well, I wasn't an official member, but I learned the points system very quickly) but I still felt like the scared fat girl.
Anyway, the whole point of that paragraph was that I feel motivated. I've never been stuck in quite the rut I feel I'm in now (it's sort of hard to be at your first real, full-time job ... as opposed to the constant change of school, classes, internships, student jobs, groups, friends, etc.) but looking at those old pictures was a really strong motivator of why I want to do this. This is super dorky but as SparkPeople had suggested when I first set up an account, I'd taken a couple pics from my freshman year of college and put them on the back of my bathroom door next to my full-length mirror as motivation.
So I don't know, I just felt good today, especially after seeing the lowest weight I've hit since the beginning of the year. 15.2 lbs gone... 61.8 lbs before I reach my first goal weight! (a whopping 81.8 lbs before I reach my ULTIMATE goal weight... but I'd be happy at my first goal weight, too.)
Fiddler on the Roof today was great. We went to dinner afterwards. I did get the grilled chicken fajita salad. I managed to limit myself to just a couple chips from the basket, though we were all starving since we hadn't eaten since breakfast. I'm sure the salad I ate wasn't less caloric than a lot of items offered, but at least I got some nutrition in there. The amount of grilled chicken on the salad was massive, probably at least two servings of chicken, and there was a good sprinkling of cheese and a couple tablespoons of guacamole (which I used instead of the dressing it came with), not to mention a couple of those little fried triangle things they stick in salads to purposely make them calorie-laden. Could I have set them aside? Yeah, I could've. But I didn't. And you know what? I don't care.
I very rarely go out to eat (well, unless you count Jimmy John's every Friday, but at least I can calculate the nutritional info for that accurately rather than trying to guess, and I can plan my fat/calories/sodium around that) and the last few times that I've done so, I have been trying to order food that at least packs a nutritional punch, even if it is full of fat and calories. I guarantee you my salad had more calories than a Big Mac, but at least I knew that I was getting a ton of mixed greens, veggies, real cheese as opposed to that processed American cheese crap, good fats from the guacamole, and not as much saturated or trans fat.
It's really been a change for me to not "blow it" completely when I go out to eat. Normally I would say "Well, I guess this will just be one of those screw up days." And I'd make no effort. I'd order the heaviest cheeseburger I could with fries, and probably get an appetizer too. Now, I feel like every single time I've gone out to eat this year, I've made a healthier choice, even if it's not under 500 calories.
Anyway, that's all. Back to work tomorrow. I move into my mom's house for a couple weeks starting tomorrow to house-sit (mostly cat-sit) for her, so I've been busy packing (while watching The Oscars, of course.) I'm a little nervous about working out -- I use my Wii so often and I won't have it. I mean, my mom lives 15 minutes away from me so it's not like I can't come here, but I like to just come right home after work and she lives closer to my work than I do, so I'd like not to make too many trips to my condo. I'm bringing 5 exercise DVDs and I'm hoping we have a couple nice-ish days so I can go for a walk/jog (she lives in a much better neighborhood for this than I do - I live in a nice place but there aren't many sidewalks and there's a lot of traffic). Also bringing weights and my resistance band. We'll see!
Today is my dad's birthday and I was looking for a picture of the two of us to put up as my facebook picture, and we really don't have any together recently, so I went way back and found pictures from my high school graduation. I was so incredibly ashamed of my body then, and though I was overweight, I was only about 20 lbs overweight as opposed to 70. Isn't it amazing how you can think you are SUCH an ugly person and then look back and realize that you were at least somewhat cute? It's too bad that I was so racked with self-image issues that I just sort of hid. If I had been more confident, I would have done more, I think. Before my senior year of high school I'd lost 30 pounds on Weight Watchers (well, I wasn't an official member, but I learned the points system very quickly) but I still felt like the scared fat girl.
Anyway, the whole point of that paragraph was that I feel motivated. I've never been stuck in quite the rut I feel I'm in now (it's sort of hard to be at your first real, full-time job ... as opposed to the constant change of school, classes, internships, student jobs, groups, friends, etc.) but looking at those old pictures was a really strong motivator of why I want to do this. This is super dorky but as SparkPeople had suggested when I first set up an account, I'd taken a couple pics from my freshman year of college and put them on the back of my bathroom door next to my full-length mirror as motivation.
So I don't know, I just felt good today, especially after seeing the lowest weight I've hit since the beginning of the year. 15.2 lbs gone... 61.8 lbs before I reach my first goal weight! (a whopping 81.8 lbs before I reach my ULTIMATE goal weight... but I'd be happy at my first goal weight, too.)
Fiddler on the Roof today was great. We went to dinner afterwards. I did get the grilled chicken fajita salad. I managed to limit myself to just a couple chips from the basket, though we were all starving since we hadn't eaten since breakfast. I'm sure the salad I ate wasn't less caloric than a lot of items offered, but at least I got some nutrition in there. The amount of grilled chicken on the salad was massive, probably at least two servings of chicken, and there was a good sprinkling of cheese and a couple tablespoons of guacamole (which I used instead of the dressing it came with), not to mention a couple of those little fried triangle things they stick in salads to purposely make them calorie-laden. Could I have set them aside? Yeah, I could've. But I didn't. And you know what? I don't care.
I very rarely go out to eat (well, unless you count Jimmy John's every Friday, but at least I can calculate the nutritional info for that accurately rather than trying to guess, and I can plan my fat/calories/sodium around that) and the last few times that I've done so, I have been trying to order food that at least packs a nutritional punch, even if it is full of fat and calories. I guarantee you my salad had more calories than a Big Mac, but at least I knew that I was getting a ton of mixed greens, veggies, real cheese as opposed to that processed American cheese crap, good fats from the guacamole, and not as much saturated or trans fat.
It's really been a change for me to not "blow it" completely when I go out to eat. Normally I would say "Well, I guess this will just be one of those screw up days." And I'd make no effort. I'd order the heaviest cheeseburger I could with fries, and probably get an appetizer too. Now, I feel like every single time I've gone out to eat this year, I've made a healthier choice, even if it's not under 500 calories.
Anyway, that's all. Back to work tomorrow. I move into my mom's house for a couple weeks starting tomorrow to house-sit (mostly cat-sit) for her, so I've been busy packing (while watching The Oscars, of course.) I'm a little nervous about working out -- I use my Wii so often and I won't have it. I mean, my mom lives 15 minutes away from me so it's not like I can't come here, but I like to just come right home after work and she lives closer to my work than I do, so I'd like not to make too many trips to my condo. I'm bringing 5 exercise DVDs and I'm hoping we have a couple nice-ish days so I can go for a walk/jog (she lives in a much better neighborhood for this than I do - I live in a nice place but there aren't many sidewalks and there's a lot of traffic). Also bringing weights and my resistance band. We'll see!
That's awesome! Congrats on the loss this year. Keep making healthy choices!
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